I don't know why but I suddenly decided to look back and read all the posts from when my dad died and now I look like this. When I first received all of those messages, I didn't really understand what they said. I knew they were saying sorry for your loss but at the time I was just thinking what loss? I couldn't have lost my dad. What are you talking about. And now here I am over a year later and I'm finally feeling the pain of receiving condolences for the death of a loved one. It hurts.