ugh.

hey guys. its been a while since i last wrote in here. xD alot of things have happened in the past week. tomorrow is my ex's birthday ! i hope that he gets everything he wants and needs. i just hope that i dont see him this weekend at the movies. he has a habit to always go to the movies on saturdays with his girlfriend. just this once, i dont want to see him... for once...i just cant take it anymore. i tried a love calculator using my name and his in that order. we got marriage and hate. so either he asks me to marry him and i hate him then ( i highly doubt this one. cause even if things dont get better for us, he will still be one of my most trusted friends.) and the second one is we do get married but i end up falling out of love for him (and again, i highly doubt this one cause as of the moment, i love him so much.) hmm.. every week at church i pray to god that i will soon forge these painful feelings that i have for him. why cant i forget about him ? i hope tomorrow will still happen. ugh i need to get out of this house. soon !